Then one evening, I found myself with a beautiful man, lets call him Teddy. I was spending the day at his place.While sitting on his couch, this moment became the start of a realization. Something I needed, an intervention. I was full of lies, hating myself so much that I wanted to ruin myself. Destroy my being. And he took me in. A lost soul in confusion, he let me stay. He talked to me. And I thought, where are people like you in this world. People that don't judge. People that show love for what it is, raw and unconditional.
That's when this amazing thing happened, more people like him showed up at the door.
Now don't think to far into this, but the first night I spent with all these people, we were intoxicated with a little pill called ecstasy. I don't recommend to do drugs, but what can I say? I'm a teenager, i'm in my experimental stage.
Anyways, back to the story. After my mind became light and my body started to float on air, I started to think more clearly. I realized, why do we spend so much time doubting ourselves and hating on one another.
There was this girl there, lets call her Kendra. Shes a beautiful soul... God shes beautiful, she doesn't see that though. And I hope one day she does. This girl, she has the voice of an angel and some of the things she says to you. Like the way she talks about life sometimes. About how music just carries her away into utter bliss. Its beautiful. She dances to her own rhythm and it makes her smile. That is true beauty.
Than there's, um Jackson lol. He's a trip. So funny back story, I actually met Jackson through a friend I was playing wing woman for. While he played wing man for his boy, Sitting at a ihop at 4 am. He didn't bother to say one word to me and made the night a lot more miserable then it had to be. I judged him right off the bat by that, thinking hes a douche bag that only cares about himself and pussy. That wasn't the case though, we got to talking at Teddy's place and I got a little better look into who Jackson really is. And hes pretty amazing. He cares so much for people and he isn't afraid to show his emotions to everyone. He just throws his feelings out there and says fuck it if people don't like it, that's the sexiest thing about him. Hes himself. And that is incredible.
Sasha I guess we can call her, shes someone I hold dear to heart because you can see so much pain in her eyes, but she manages to be the life of the party... You know when a field of flowers is out in the open and it looks beautiful and untouched. Then one day someone mows straight through it. It looks destroyed, but the roots are still there. Then eventually, over time the flowers grow back into a magnificent field. This is when the realization that no matter how many times the man mows over the flowers and destroys them, the roots are still there and they will grow back. That is Sasha. She is a beautiful flower field that keeps getting destroyed but always finds a way to grow back. The sad part is that every time its mowed over, it makes it harder to grow back. You can see time wearing her down. This innocent 18 yr old beauty, so young yet dying because she needs help. God I wish I could do more to help her.
So many of these people intrigued me and taught me things I needed to learn. I spent only a week there but It changed me.
A misfit group of old souls that are traveling through life by the way of love. A group of youngsters that haven't yet found themselves, yet aren't completely lost.
I guess once you spend time with the wanderers you never forget.
You never forget that there are others out there too.
Others that have pain inside them, but they don't allow it to take over.
Just be free.